Tik tok…….

Being a Capricorn I’m always trying to do everything, even the things that are not very important and relevant to the time and space that I’m living in. Example, this might sound a little exaggerated but I have drawn a time table for myself with only half a day of break only to study for my entrance exams. I give myself 100 tasks to complete in a day and when procrastination hits me to the core and the next day arrives there goes a full round of self doubt, overthinking, my inability to complete all 100 tasks that are humanly not possible resulting in assigning 200 tasks for the next day, inability to complete them all and the circle never ends. I think I assign myself all these tasks because of a Capricorn tendency to always have the top place in every field . I remember doing my sociology test simultaneously with my online class along with writing notes and eating lunch just so because I didn’t want to piss off my teacher who will have nothing to do with me in what like 2 months( impossible but I did complete them all). I won’t even have the time to write this had I not squeezed my schedule.

Writing this has made me realise how much I want to stop and experience things that just pass by me while I am completing an assignment, doing chores, studying, maintaining social relationships with people just to please everyone in my life and expecting for people to reciprocate all that I do and think of doing for them (I need a whole other blog to write what happens when people don’t reciprocate). It has occurred to me how much I want to take a break from all the worldly things and for sometime become a “saint”. Jokes aside I know I cannot change what is in my nature but here are some things that I did and you can also do these for yourself if you want to stop for sometime :

1. Music- Listen music that you can relate to or you like. It does have to be a specific genre just go where your mind takes you( personal favourite).

2. Hobbies- I’m sure everyone has hobbies they cherish but cannot do it. So give yourself some time and dance, paint,sing,garden……

3. Spend some time alone and procrastinate all you want. Let the deadlines crash and let bygones be bygones.

4. Watch Zindagi Na Milegi Dobara, 3 idiots, Jaane Tu……Ya Janne Na.

5. Try to acknowledge your strengths rather than question them. You don’t have to act complacent.

6. Never let anybody (yourself) tell you that you don’t deserve what you want or you cannot get what you want.

Remember that time never comes back and you may not have another life to complete or do what you most want. Carefully count your tick-toks’ and never let them go.

“We don’t remember days, we remember moments” – Theodore finch.